Category Depression
The Jitters, Or, The Nightmares Cometh
It happens every now and again. Sometimes I have a bad day at work. Or a mistake I made that I can’t let go. Something’s looming on the horizon and I obsess about it. Or my brain simply won’t shut up, no matter what I do or try not to dwell upon. It’s a case […]
Stress Test
Sometimes you feel as if the world is out to get you. There’s no logic to why things just seem to happen; events just hurtle out of control. Sensing doom, a monster rises from within, on the attack. Whether or not this is a good thing remains to be seen. It sure feels great to […]
Conversations
Two things of note happened this weekend: I heard from two members of my family. And while that’s not unusual for most, for me, well, nothing’s ever simple. My cousin Bette lives about a third of the way across the country. We used to see each other frequently as kids. Didn’t even take forty-five minutes […]
Self-Isolation
I’m sure I’m not the only one to say this, but I’ve been spending too much time alone. There’s lots to be said about the solitary life, such as it creates self-reflection, gives one the chance to clear out the basement, or cook odd food combinations for dinner, like split peas and licorice. Mind you, […]
The Confinement of Safety
I was not doing well at all, in fact, I was on the verge of cracking. Thursday was a convergence of a lot of unfortunately events that nearly broke me. It was my mother’s birthday (she’s been gone for 6 years – seems like yesterday!). After a fitful sleep, I woke up sad, but that […]
Heavenly Sign
An actual cloud spotted today on the way to my writers’ group meeting I think Mother Nature is trying to tell us all something…or at least me. Today my friend and I were driving to my writers’ group meeting and as we both looked up, there it was. A cloud shaped like a heart. It […]
Transitions
It’s July. Kids just got out of school. Summer is upon us! It’s July. And the retail industry says, “Kids will go back to school soon! Summer’s over!” So here I am, in Phipp’s, pulling down all of the shady patio umbrellas, deck furniture, picnic tables, beach chairs, casual dining ware and all other accoutrements […]
Stuck
I’ve been feeling like the above picture lately – gray, desolate, remote. And I can’t seem to shake the funk I’ve been mired in. It all started a few weeks ago when a promising job opening came my way. I even had a connection that opened the door to an interview. I arrived early (but […]
Love Thyself
I think I can attribute a lot of my problems to the simple fact that I don’t love myself. I just don’t think I’m worthy of anything good. What makes me think such a thing? To be honest, I don’t know. My parents showed me a lot of love growing up. I wasn’t spoiled, but […]
Shift
It comes over me unexpectedly sometimes. Today started off all right. Was in a pretty good mood when I began my shift at Phipp’s. Sure, there was a chorus of crying babies, but then again, when isn’t there? A flat filled with boxes of household cleaners and soaps awaited me. Wasting no time, I dug […]
Confessions of A Middle-Age Woman 