Category Self-esteem

The Perception of Time

I recently had a birthday, yet there wasn’t anything to celebrate. And it wasn’t that I turned all grouchy because I tacked on another year; with all the anger and frustration surrounding me, I figured I’d hold off the festivities until it’s safe. You know, maybe in 2092. That aside, I took stock how people […]

Many Happy Returns on the Day

I gained another year the other day. It wasn’t by choice; I had little say in the matter. But I did choose to make it a bit special, even if I was the only attendee at my birthday bash. I’ve been isolating because COVID is raging in these parts, and after a scare at Christmas, […]

Gone Missing

I’ve not written much over the course of the past few months, mainly because I’ve been rushing to finish what started to be an edit but wound up being a major rewrite of my book. I’m almost there. Just a few last things and it’ll be ready to send off to my agent. But first, […]

Sense and Normalcy

My workstation as of late I’ve been writing so much lately. Ironically, it’s been all for grants and fundraising. I’m still hacking away at changes in my book, but the funny thing is my language has become entirely too formal. See, when you write a grant, you have to learn this kind of jargon that […]

Baring Souls

So there was an open mic night the other night. My new job sponsored it. It was meant to encourage anyone who’s written anything to get up there and read it aloud to those who attended. It made for an interesting evening. Whenever you hold events such as these, you attract a group of people […]

The Shadow Self

Look at the above sun in eclipse. Beautiful, isn’t it? Behind that giant black disc of a moon is a glorious star, almost resentful that the moon’s blocking its way. It stretches its light outward, blossom-like, as if it were to say, “you can’t stop me, ya hear?” Sure, the dark moon has its moment, […]

The Way Ahead

Take a look at the above picture. I snapped it on my phone one day when the skies were glorious. It’s in the Hudson Valley, where I live, and in my opinion, one of the most picturesque places in the country. What makes this a wonderful place to live is one doesn’t have to drive […]

Resignation

Setting Off On My New Life Journey Because my new position will be at a nonprofit, I had to go through several rounds of approval before I was hired. First, it was the finance committee. Then it was the executive committee, followed by full board approval. It was a painstakingly agonizing process, believe me. Every […]

Personal History

I found an old diary I kept right as my marriage broke up. It was tucked in a box of stuff I’d forgotten about until recently. A wall of boxes blocked the windows in my guest room. Thick and heavy, they contained a jumble of junk and useful items from my past lives. CDs, DVDs, […]

A Slight Case Of Freaking Out

I’m reaching that point in my life where I’m trying to have a little faith in myself and my abilities. It’s been rough, if you’ve read this blog. And I’ve sure been trying awfully hard to turn my life around. It’s had its fits and starts, but lately I’ve been on something of an upswing. […]